Being home during the panini press that was last year showed me that there’s an anxious version of myself that runs on autopilot whenever doing so feels easier than actively caring for myself. She makes choices that undermine what feels best and most gentle in the name of efficacy and completed to do lists. Last night, she and I were reintroduced as the first day of school had me struggling to choose how much I feel able to prioritize my own wellness over the expectation to perform.
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I'm a real person outside my classroom. I'm a real woman working through my own issues with body image. And just as much I see my students in ways they've yet to realize, it's okay for them to see me too.
"Some days I'm an incredible mom and a sucky businesswoman. Some days I'm a great businesswoman and a terrible wife. Some days I'm perfect in all roles at home and barely available at work or for friends. I'll never able to evenly divide my attention to my hats. I'll never be perfect, but everyday I'm good at something, and I have to look for that." | Lisa Price
As I'm gearing up to enter a different classroom this Tuesday - to make room in my heart for another group of students - I couldn't do so without properly acknowledging the blueprint of my experience with you all and how much it means to me. Ya'll gave me purpose at a time when I was only guessing at what I should be doing. Ya'll were a constant confirmation that there is value in pouring into others, without expectation of return. That the return, is inevitably and undeniably, of greater value. And that relationship building is worth the effort, no matter what differences may suggest otherwise.